everything feels so empty these days. like nothings in place and sumthings always missing. one of the reasons might juz be rugby... i feel so empty and sad without it. it made my day every wed and fri, and now, im juz going home early and slacking on the com. i tried to study for a bit, and even though i did, nothing seems to be gettin in much. im juz afraid of everything ahead. Exams... would i do well? rugby...will i play as good as i wanna be? juz trying to figure out wut everyone thinks nowadays. u juz cant trust sum ppl cuz their juz nice to ure face....sad...ive also realized how much ive changed (( with the topic brought up first )) and how much ppl ard me noticed how much ive changed. gahh shitty shitty shit shits....
i hav no clue wut this post really means as all most of my posts usually hav a certain topic i'll post abt, but i guess sumtimes, u juz need to ramble on and on and on on ure blog sumtimes=/
Windows movie maker relaxes me.. (( strange as it seems )) and so, ive been trying to make some movies (( or wut u could call it at that standard...)) every now and then but the downside is, my eyes start to burn=)
well, things arent always too perfect even though u think everythings going on fine. wow.. speak for myself..-_____-" and maybe, i cant realy trust anyone here ... anyone but myself. ure the only one u noe and ure the only one u can rely on. sumtimes i think to myself when im really pissed with everybody, ' why cant everyone juz BE like me.. juz THINK the way that i do...' then, i think again and say.... ' wut the hell, that would be a disaster=/' but u dun make it any better. throw me up and pull me down.
oooh boy. cant wait for rugby to start. awesum sport and im gald that sumone introduced it to me=D. there! now i feel much better getting all that outX]
heh....sumtimes, i scare meself.
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